Stupid knee

The good news is they didn't find any blood clots in my leg. The bad news is the ultrasound and X-ray showed fluid in my knee and they don't know why it's there. One step at a time until I'm feeling good again

Moderation not deprivation

An important lesson I am struggling with.

Doctor Appointment

I'm home from the doctor. He upped my Prozac to hopefully make me less homicidal. Ha ha ha my poor kids and hubby. My mood over all has improved. My knee is still feeling pretty rough so he sent me for am X-ray. The pain and stiffness is normal for arthritis and agitated by my weight. However the on and off swelling has him worried. So tomorrow I go back for an ultrasound to check for blood clots. He'll check my TSH in a month to make sure I am at a good dosage. He told me to start wearing wrist braces again at night for the carpal tunnel so I don't lose anymore strength in my hands. My blood pressure is borderline. He starts medication for patients at 140/90 and my blood pressure has been 140/83 on average. So he told me to go on the DASH diet for the next 2 months until I come back for my next appointment with him.  If it doesn't go down he may put me on medication. Sooooooooooo for now it's time to load up on fruits and veggies, keep exercising, keep drinking water and keep trying to lose weight.

Weigh In Week 1

It has been a week since I decided to kick my ass into gear. I lost 2.6 pounds! Woot woot! Only 204 to go!

I miss my face

My face just isn't the same and I miss it.

I'm back and things are scary.

I'm back and let's face it things aren't great. I'm at my absolute heaviest. Not even 9 months pregnant with any of my kids was I this heavy. I have had a "scary number" in my mind that I never wanted to reach. I blew it out of the water. I'm in pain every single day. I started treatment for severe obstructive sleep apnea right after Christmas. My TSH is all over the place. My anxiety meds aren't working as well as they were. My periods are either like a leaky faucet for 10 days or a freaking flood for 5 days. I feel like in 12 again and refuse to wear anything but black pants that time of the month. I'm miserable and I'm struggling to feel good and it sucks balls. Sooooooooooo here I go again and let's pray this time the scale goes south instead of north.